Almost failing from the start – myself, my spouse and perfectionism in a marriage

Less than 20 hours after the self loathing realisation and setting a goal to my self tow rite an article here every day, I almost forgot, almost failed from the start and called it quits.. However, here I am writing whatever is on my mind, at this moment, it’s about my spouse, and me, and

Self loathing

Today, for the first time maybe ever, I loath my self. As I write this word I taste how ugly it is, how it’s was never a part of my vocabulary, how I am used to putting all kinds of difficulties and emotions in writing, but never had I ever used a term like this.